introductions. of sorts…

Originally posted in Medium.

introductions

of sorts…

Hello, I am Mr. Frausto and am very excited to be teaching in the computer lab and using the Internet a lot more in the classroom, especially to create a space on the Internet that extends what we do in the classroom out into the real world.

I have been teaching since September 2001, and have been teaching in Chicago since 2002. I love living in the neighborhood in which I work because it makes me feel extremely connected to my students and their families, especially since my family has lived in this neighborhood since October of 1994. I feel very connected to my students being a product of the Chicago public school system myself. I hope to inspire my students to establish goals and to then set in motion actions to achieve them. Having been very fortunate to have taken part of various diverse learning experiences myself, I hope to prepare my students to become active participants of an ever-evolving technological and multicultural world. I believe that it is important for students to be able to express themselves, their feelings, and thoughts. I hope this space is being created in my classroom, and now on the World Wide Web.

In my spare time, I enjoy reading and writing. Some of my interests include poetry, photography, video editing, music recording, web design, coding, traveling, and history.

from Tonti’s Computer Lab

i am me, a teacher, a po’ E.T, artivist, journalist, librarian.
short e aka 5ynthet1c m1t0515 of the lonely lost dark empties. a dreamer, a wanderer, a wonderer. still trying to find sense, crashing against spaces of the mind. not sure anymore about me or about u. it’s stopped making sense a long time ago, falling deeper into the rabbit hole. where am i again!?! what? never mind… don’t expect me to say anything. i came to watch. it’s too complicated. “who needs action when you got words.” “i’m a loser baby, so why don’t you…” and stuff.

i am just like you, with too many words inside my head, and too many ideas floating around, but i am just like you, regardless of what the voice inside my head may attempt to convince us of.
i can usually be found working with students, and when i am not, i am working on myself in my community with a pen and paper and a camera interacting with my laptop, a mic, garageband, a guitar, and a midi player…

in the future, where will we be? in the future, what will we be? i am po’E.T. today! tomorrow who knows?
and they say he spoke in two tongues, armed like two guns…

from urban po’E.Tree(s)

Well, I am currently a computer science/technology teacher who’s been writing poetry regularly since I was 12. What began as something I did at night, while hiding in my room, has turned into an obsession of sorts. Poetry is my therapy, joy, a home, a friend, a companion and partner in dialogue. I want to share this relationship with my students, and hope they also find a way to find their voice through poetry.

Compiled in these posts are poems created mostly by third through fifth grade students along with the process as to how assignments/activities are selected. Students have been members in the school’s Spoken Word club or have been a student at some point in one of my classes.

The official title of the club/class was “Spoken Word: Poetry, Raps, and Lyrics”, which is currently non-existent, but won’t be for long. I guess I will also post some of my poems, which I write specifically for the students of the Spoken Word club, my classes, and community.

I’m hoping that eventually this blog becomes a continuous conversation about poetry, in particular the poetry of children.

The Poetry of Children

Breaking schemas
And
The molding of tomorrow’s youth
Into plastic soldiers
With replaceable, interchangeable personalities,
Guns, and names.
Marching away into the eve
Of tomorrow’s dawn,
Our
Children’s poetry
Will be
Bullets and gunshots ricocheting off the walls
That once supported dreams.
Left trying to decipher,
Marks on the wall,
Messages in graffiti,
If there was ever any
Meaning.
Cavemen left their marks on walls,
But these new scars relate misguided,
Disenchanted, disenfranchised urban youth-
Revenge on the concrete
Built on superficial ideals,
Wasted energy, fading hope, and savage inequalities.
Historians will remain in awe
At stains of blood,
Of murder filled books juxtaposed with fairy tales.
And these stories are yet to be recorded and written.
Depending on who dictates the future,
And how much everyone’s allowed to know,
They may never get written.
Thus the
Children’s poetry
Must not fall on
Or off
Deaf ears,
So that deviant behavior and memory
Will continue to remind
History,
And perhaps the whole conscious
Of present society,
Of those ignored, gentrified, and pushed to the outskirts
Until permeating the psyche.
Being that truth cannot be
Hidden or buried,
Children’s poetry
Will come out beating
To rhythms the color of love
That most people have already long forgotten.
Beatings and rhythms,
Washing out
The bitterness the present has left us.
Or maybe it’s just me that keeps hearing
The same thing,
The same song
That everyone’s been singing.
All the radio’s been playing.
Dewey would argue what the schools have been teaching
For centuries since the Romans and Greeks,
Or what corporate entities dictate through promoting.
Because
Nobody’s been listening,
Nobody is listening,
Nobody is listening
To the
Children’s poetry.
Cause what could they possibly teach anybody?
The
Children’s poetry,
Strange mutterings,
Frequencies,
But transmissions
Have had a tendency of being
Intercepted,
And thus the message has yet to be
Fully understood.
But children still believe in poetry.
Translating messages for history,
Some must start then decoding these writings and movements
Before an eternal silence befalls us all.
Trying to figure
Children’s poetry,
Already hiding in alleys,
Break dancing, and drawing on walls.
Trained to be just like little adults.
Learning quickly to bully and scheme,
How to politic and maneuver,
Aaaarrrggghhhhh.
Next comes the nervous breakdown.
Screaming, shouting, shooting in schools.
Wait.
It’s already happening.
Wait.
Because
Nobody’s been listening,
Nobody is listening,
Nobody is listening
To the
Children’s poetry.
Listening to the static off the vinyl
Interwoven into the grooves
Until foundations come down crumbling
Off the bass
From the
Children’s poetry.
Yelling to be recognized
As a single living identity, entity,
Independent of society’s standards and schemas
Of how children are supposed to be.
The whole of society seems bent and content with silencing
What echoes tremble in the voice of
Children’s poetry.
Dancing, running, playing, exploring, discovering
Without guides, barriers, or grown ups
At peace to develop like haiku:
The child once had thoughts
Till order became borders
The child could not cross.
The child still has dreams,
But rules are raised up like walls.
Free the child in me.
Please.
Free the child in me.
Please. Free the child in me. Please.
Free the child in me.
Free the child in me.
Please. Free the child in me. Please.
Free the child in me.

9.24.04.

from spoken word: poetry, raps & lyrics.

crumbling ivory towers.

crumbling ivory towers (continents are just big islands).

wisdom means nothing on an island.
so isolated from the heart is the mind,
and if it takes more time,
well, i don’t really mind
as long as at the end, we get it right.

why are we in such a hurry?
always in such a rush?
to collapse and crash?
get it over with?
but there’s so much more to this,
so much more to this life of ours.
reach for stars and melt the bars.
live like lions instead of cowards.
free the earth. remove the chains.
expand your love. release the pain,
and start to look at everything
with new eyes. see through lies.
you realize time’s a device
to keep one occupied,
but there’s so much more to this.
there’s so much more to this.

wisdom means nothing on an island.
so isolated from the heart is the mind,
and if it takes more time,
well, i don’t really mind
as long as at the end, we get it right.

let’s do something that matters-
something that makes a difference.
let’s be that difference,
and bring about the change
we’ve been promised for so long
by politicians, pastors, preachers, ministers, and teachers.
bob dylan said it’d be blowing in the wind
for the times, they are changing.
and once we were slaves, now we are free.
once were the subjects, now let’s run these schools,
and educate ourselves to learn-
not to be assessed in order to pass
when life’s the most important test,
which can only be assessed
and evaluated through our collective happiness.
please excuse my arrogance.
please excuse my arrogance.

wisdom means nothing on an island.
so isolated from the heart is the mind,
and if it takes more time,
well, i don’t really mind
as long as at the end, we get it right.

07.30.14.

untangling trauma

untangling trauma.

i’m the rock and the hard place,
so all be damned
when we blindly follow along
just to get on,
just to get by-
choose to live a lie
haunted by an eternal question:
why?

writing is easy,
but singing is hard.

let me put all of my words within a box.
i hope you let me fill it all up with all of my dreams
within these four walls,
so we can create our own universe.
you know we can imagine a different way. a better way
that would be our own.
we think we’re so grown,
but still act like little kids-
afraid of forming opinions
for fear of opposing ones.

when i was 16,
i used to be so angry.
who am i kidding?
i’m still fucking angry.

but i don’t want to be so angry
for the rest of my life.
i got a son who means the world,
deserves the world, and with a fucking smile
even when i’m not feeling up to it.
he deserves the best of whatever world we can invent.
try to battle out all of my demons,
so as to not have to repeat them,
or transmit them to him.
i want him to be free of all of my emotional baggage.
i don’t want society to place limits for him-
for how high the ceiling should be,
but then neither should I.
i mean i gotta try
to see the light,
and make the world bright
with illuminated sentences and phrases.
i mean i’m not that little kid anymore,
and the weight of my past should not burden me.
if i’m to become the type of parent i want to be,
i can’t be
of the lonely lost dark empty anymore.
i’ve got friends, a son, and wife,
and soon we’ll have a daughter.
i’m not so lonely anymore,
or even lost.
perhaps a bit out of touch,
but it’s not so dark
inside of my heart.
some space’s opened up,
and it’s growing each day.

07.16.14.

cuando las leyes se escriben (when laws are written).

cuando las leyes se escriben.

mira, mira como cai,
el pueblo se tira,
y la mentira se estira.
la mentira se estira.

aquí no habra espacio
pa’ que existan
todos los pueblos
siempre unidos?

a que este mundo tan confundido.
queremos vivir en paz,
pero con tantas guerras-
pues ya no se puede.

y donde cabremos
dentro de este sistema sin frenos?
en donde acabaremos
si nunca se nos ha tomado en cuenta
cuando las leyes se escriben
y se las inventan?

mira, mira como cai,
el pueblo se tira,
y la mentira se estira.
la mentira se estira.

yo no llegue,
a mi me trajieron para acá,
y yo no escoji en donde nací.
soy ciudadano del mundo.

yo decido
como me identifico,
en que idioma me explico,
y con que lengua describo
a el universo que exploro
al soñar y al despertar.

al soñar y al despertar
salgo siempre a navegar
con un plumón y mil palabras
traigo ojos como una cámara
para no olvidar.
para ya no olvidar.

mira, mira como cai,
el pueblo se tira,
y la mentira se estira.
la mentira se estira.

07.09.14.

listen to the track here on soundcloud.

translation:

 when laws are written.

look, look how it falls,
the people cower,
and the lie stretches itself.
the lie stretches out.

there must not be room here
for all of the people
to exist
always united?

oh what a world, so confused.
we want to live in peace,
but with so many wars-
well, we can’t anymore.

and where will we fit
within this system without brakes?
where will we end
if we’ve never been taken into account
when the laws are written
and they get invented?

look, look how it falls,
the people cower,
and the lie stretches itself.
the lie stretches out.

i didn’t come,
they brought me here,
and i didn’t choose where i was born.
i am a citizen of the world.

i decide
How i identify myself,
in which language i explain myself,
and with what tongue i describe
the universe, which i explore
while i’m dreaming and awake.

while i’m dreaming and awake,
i go out and navigate
with a pen and a thousand words,
with my eyes like a camera,
so i don’t forget.
so i won’t now forget.

look, look how it falls,
the people cower,
and the lie stretches itself.
the lie stretches out.

translated 07.15.14.

¿quien se acuerda? (who remembers?)

¿quien se acuerda?

¿quien se acuerda cuando fuimos?
¿quien se acuerda lo que fuimos?
¿lo que somos?
¿seguiremos siendo?

como una ola del mar,
ó una piedra rolando
que en el camino se encuentra.
como una brisa del viento,
una caricia y un beso
del planeta y universo,
un instante y un momento
pues es lo mismo
si nuestro amor es eterno.

tu me quieres.
yo te quiero.
yo te amo.
tu me amas,
y como pájaros, los dos,
brotamos alas
para no enredarnos
entre las ramas
de nuestro jardín.

hasta convertirnos
en oxigeno para los dos
para sobrevivir,
para poder existir.

sin ti yo no quiero seguir.

tu me tienes.
yo te tengo,
y así vamos andar
como unas olas del mar
ó piedras rolando
que en el camino se encontraron.

¿quien se acuerda cuando fuimos?
¿quien se acuerda lo que fuimos?
cuando lo que somos,
seguiremos siendo
es lo único que importa.

y nuestra pequeña familia.

07.02.14.

who remembers?

who remembers when we were?
who remembers what we were?
what we are?
will continue being?

like a wave from the sea,
or a rolling stone
that on the journey is found.
like a breeze from the wind,
a caress and a kiss
from the planet and universe,
an instant and a moment
well it’s the same thing
if our love is eternal.

you want me.
i want you.
i love you.
you love me,
and like birds, both of us,
grow out wings
so as to no become entangled
amongst the vines
of our garden.

until we become
oxygen for both of us
to survive,
to be able to exist.

without you i don’t want to go on.

you have me.
i have you,
and that’s how we’ll go on
like waves from the sea
or rolling stones
that on the journey found each other.

who remembers when we were?
who remembers what we were?
when what we are,
will continue being
is the only thing that matters.

and our little family.

translated 07.15.14.

melt into one.

melt into one.

the days, the days,
they all melt into one.
the days, the days,
they all melt into one.

individual snowflakes and fingerprints,
no two are alike,
but are we really so different
when we remove the layers
of what we think we are
as we all stand naked on an island,
but i don’t want to live alone,
and i need human beings
‘cause solitary conversations and monologues
are just not healthy.

i don’t like interacting with the TV
or responding to a show,
and conversing with a host
that doesn’t even know i exist.

individual snowflakes and fingerprints,
then why do we all choose to
live like slaves
when wu-tang already taught us
to call each other gods?
but nietzsche boasts,
god is dead.

the days, the days,
they all melt into one.
the days, the days,
they all melt into one.

wake up, woke up.
it was all too hard.
return to sleep,
return to sheep,
and all the pain and secrets
that we keep.

wake up, woke up,
and it gets so hard
to just not give up,
to not become corrupt
or sacrifice ideals,
to keep it real,
to simply fucking feel.
in such a plastic fucking world,
how does one maintain whole
without feeling part of soul
slowly, sold out, away?

all of our dreams out on display
or put on lay away.
individual snowflakes and fingerprints,
but the modern world is a fatalistic
future for the majority (of us),
which are just
peons and clogs in this machinery.

the days, the days,
they all melt into one.
the days, the days,
they all melt into one.

and every single day,
we die the same way
for the things we do not say
from our feelings,
which bring us shame.

06.12.14.

untitled.

untitled.

when i was a young boy,
and i thought i’d live forever,
i thought the days went by so slow.

but now it seems, the days and years
won’t stop passing me by.

all i know is that i
don’t want to die,
and it’s not like I want to
live forever,
but i just don’t want to think about being gone
because all i know is that i’m not done.

yes, i know, it’s dumb
to be afraid
of things we cannot stop,
so i just go on. i just go on
and on and on and on
and off.

05.12.14.

vengo viniendo.

vengo viniendo.

vengo venir, sin nada que añadir.
¿como se dice lo que no se habla,
en una tierra lejana,
que a veces ni se le entiende
lo que esta escrito
en la pared?

el mar no se acaba
pero el agua pa’ beber si, y
con ácidos esta cayendo
del cielo.
¿y quien se la ira tomar?-
pues el pobre indígena
que vive lejos de la cuidad
porque a el no le venden
agua embotellada.
todavía no ha llegado
la gran tecnología
con su civilización
de armas y guerras
tan avanzadas con sus
computadoras.
pero a el pobre no le
falta nada,
solo que el rico lo deje
trabajar
sin tanto chingar, sin tanto hostigar,
sin tanto robar, sin tanto robar.
porque al final, al pobre no se
le deja nada.
no le dejan nada.

vengo, viniendo y no traigo nada
mas que unos sueños
y unas pocas hojas de papel con poemas
que no dicen nada.
mas bien despegan mi pobre alma.
y por aquí todo con calma
que no esta pasando aquí nada.

no mas lo que sobra.
no mas lo que sobra.
yo por eso estoy con los zapatistas.
desde chicago,
me alineo con el indígena
que al fin y al cabo
mi piel esta igual de morena.
con tanto que decir
pero sin palabras para hablar.
el mar es tan profundo
que no dejo de soñar
en otro mundo
con mas justicia
y libertad verdadera-
no cualquiera porquería
que nos quieran vender
por la tele.

vengo, viniendo y no traigo nada
mas que unos sueños
y unas pocas hojas de papel con poemas
que no dicen nada.
mas bien despegan mi pobre alma.
y por aquí todo con calma
que no esta pasando aquí nada.

yo me quedo con los míos.
tu te quedas con los tuyos,
y al final nos quedamos
todos solos y aislados.
porque no mejor diseñar
un mundo en donde se puedan
vivir los dos-
los tuyos y los míos.

vengo, viniendo y no traigo nada
mas que unos sueños
y unas pocas hojas de papel con poemas
que no dicen nada.
mas bien despegan mi pobre alma.
y por aquí todo con calma
que no esta pasando aquí nada.

05.12.14.

 
 
 

i come, am coming.

i’ve come while coming without anything to add.
how does one say what we do not speak,
on a far away land,
where sometimes, we can’t even understand
what is written
on the wall.

the sea never ends,
but our drinking water will, and
with acids, it’s falling
from the sky.
and who’ll drink it then?-
well the poor indigenous
that live far from the city
because they do not sell
bottled water to them yet.
this great technology
has yet to arrive
with its civilization
of weapons and wars
so advanced with its
computers.
but the poor don’t really
need more,
but for the rich to let
them work
without always bothering, without always harassing,
without always robbing, without so much theft.
because in the end, the poor
are left with nothing.
nothing is left for them.

i come, am coming, and i bring nothing
except for some dreams,
and a few sheets of paper with poems
that don’t say anything,
but rather unglue my poor soul.
around here, everything with calm
because nothing is happening.

just what is left over.
just what is left over.
that’s why i’m with the zapatistas.
from chicago,
i align with the indigenous
because in the end
my skin is just as brown.
with so much to say,
but without words to speak.
the sea is so deep
that i can’t stop dreaming
of another world
with more justice
and true freedom-
not any kind of junk
that they want to sell us
on tv.

i come, am coming, and i bring nothing
except for some dreams,
and a few sheets of paper with poems
that don’t say anything,
but rather unglue my poor soul.
around here, everything with calm
because nothing is happening.

i will stay with mine.
you will stay with yours,
and in the end, we’re left
all alone and isolated.
why not rather design
a world in which
both can live-
all of yours and mine.

i come, am coming, and i bring nothing
except for some dreams,
and a few sheets of paper with poems
that don’t say anything,
but rather unglue my poor soul.
around here, everything with calm
because nothing is happening.

english translation 11.20.15.

share your light, share your truth.

share your light, share your truth.

bring out some light, and shine it through.
we are the heart that melted through.
beware the ghosts that cut us through.
release control, and break on through.

for centuries now, we have crossed across
ancient paths
trying to find a way to make a home
from aztlan to tenochtitlan.

rivers are rising and
secrets eroding.
we were the light,
but then came the night.
we lost the chance
to find ourselves
in all this darkness
and the unknown.
we could’ve really had a moment,
but we gave it up.
just to be human,
we gave it up.

we’ll never be special like somebody,
so you can stop trying and pretending
to make songs like anybody,
to make music for everybody,
and just be yourself,
and just be yourself.

bring out some light, and shine it through.
we are the heart that melted through.
beware the ghosts that cut us through.
release control, and break on through.

numerology and big changes will come.
tax the poor, and they will succumb.
tax the rich, and they’ll cum
all over you,
even start a revolution,
and call themselves the people,
and then spin it on tv.
some folks think that’s crazy,
just conspiracy theories,
except that’s what’s really happening,
that’s what’s really happening,
that’s what’s really happening.

explain and make sense
out of all this nonsense,
and you can’t quite
come to terms with the absurd that
we are just a thought-
a word, kinetic energy,
and a verb.
we had dreams of being like birds,
and built machines to make life easy,
but everything came down crashing,
everything came down crashing.

bring out some light, and shine it through.
we are the heart that melted through.
beware the ghosts that cut us through.
release control, and break on through.

i would choose to fly high
like icarus,
but my wings would ignite
like a phoenix.
one day, we’ll all just return
to star dust,
but until then
share your light,
shed your light,
share your truth,
shed your truth.
free your mind if there’s time
and find a way to escape.

bring out some light, and shine it through.
we are the heart that melted through.
beware the ghosts that cut us through.
release control, and break on through.

04.12.14.