with you.

don’t tell me you don’t understand
that everything’s been preplanned,
and we are a part of it, but
no one ever asked us.
we just got thrown into the game,
but i do not want to play
because no one really knows the rules
since there are none,
and thus it becomes so easy
       to play unfair,
whether intentional or accidental.
i do not want to play.
i do not want to play
at living-
that life’s a game
for winners and losers.
no, i do not want to play.
i want to live.
i want to live mine.
i want to live my life
beyond the self imposed sorrow
and fake plastic smiles,
beyond the mystics and martyrs,
beyond the saints and the sinners,
beyond good and evil,
i want to live.
i want to live my life
(with you).

02.15.11.