implanting messages to later ignore.

 
 
broke myself into the inside of
       my brain,
and left a message for myself
       to find
myself all in disarray.
the world is rearranged
every single day
with the energy to change
       the world,
but i keep getting dragged
       down into a giant
       great big hole
that i wish the whole
       world would
       just disappear.
by night time, i’m so ready
       to throw it all away,
and not give a fuck about
       anything,
and just give into all of the temptations
until i finally give into
       deep sleep,
so that by the next day,
i’ve forgotten all about my
       message,
and how i broke myself into the
       inside of my brain.
 

02.15.11.