the poetry of children.

the poetry of children.

breaking schemas
and
the molding of tomorrow’s youth
into plastic soldiers
with replaceable, interchangeable personalities,
guns, and names.
marching away into the eve
of tomorrow’s dawn,
our
children’s poetry
will be
bullets and gunshots ricocheting off the walls
that once supported dreams.

left trying to decipher,
marks on the wall,
messages in graffiti,
if there was ever any
meaning.
cavemen left their marks on walls,
but these new scars relate misguided, disenchanted,
disenfranchised urban youth, revenge on the concrete
built on superficial ideals,
wasted energy, fading hope, and savage inequalities.

historians will remain in awe
at stains of blood,
of murder filled books juxtaposed with fairy tales.
and these stories are yet to be recorded and written.
depending on who dictates the future,
and how much everyone’s allowed to know,
they may never get written.

thus the
children’s poetry
must not fall on
or off
deaf ears,
so that deviant behavior and memory
will continue to remind
history,
and perhaps the whole conscious
of present society,
of those ignored, gentrified, and pushed to the outskirts
until permeating the psyche.
being that truth cannot be
hidden or buried,
children’s poetry
will come out beating
to rhythms the color of love
that most people have already long forgotten.
beatings and rhythms,
washing out
the bitterness the present has left us.
or maybe it’s just me that keeps hearing
the same thing,
the same song
that everyone’s been singing.
all the radio’s been playing.
dewey would argue what the schools have been teaching
for centuries since the romans and greeks,
or what corporate entities dictate through promoting.

because
nobody’s been listening,
nobody is listening,
nobody is listening
to the
children’s poetry.

cause what could they possibly teach anybody?

the
children’s poetry,
strange mutterings,
frequencies,
but transmissions
have had a tendency of being
intercepted,
and thus the message has yet to be
fully understood.
but children still believe in poetry.
translating messages for history,
some must start then decoding these writings and movements
before an eternal silence befalls us all.
trying to figure
children’s poetry,
already hiding in alleys,
break dancing, and drawing on walls.
trained to be just like little adults.
learning quickly to bully and scheme,
how to politic and maneuver,
aaaarrrggghhhhh.
next comes the nervous breakdown.
screaming, shouting, shooting in schools.

wait.
it’s already happening.
wait.

because
nobody’s been listening,
nobody is listening,
nobody is listening
to the
children’s poetry.

listening to the static off the vinyl
interwoven into the grooves
until foundations come down crumbling
off the bass
from the
children’s poetry.
yelling to be recognized
as a single living identity, entity,
independent of society’s standards and schemas
of how children are supposed to be.
the whole of society seems bent and content with silencing
what echoes tremble in the voice of
children’s poetry.
dancing, running, playing, exploring, discovering
without guides, barriers, or grown ups
at peace to develop like haiku:

the child once had thoughts
till order became borders
the child could not cross.

the child still has dreams,
but rules are raised up like walls.
free the child in me.

please.

free the child in me.
please. free the child in me. please.
free the child in me.

free the child in me.
please. free the child in me. please.
free the child in me.

9.24.04.

patiently awaiting promotion and for things to get better.

patiently awaiting promotion and for things to get better.

       everything is being modified, designed, stratified, digitized, maximized then minimized, marketed, socialized, manipulated then redistributed, imitated, upgraded, patented, repackaged, reformatted, made over, made up and everyone just gives in, bows down, let’s go, fades out.
       so then do people really trust society, believe in anything or just have no choice?
       so that today for all intents and purposes becomes another slicker, faster, cheaper version of yesterday.
       everyday commits tiny actions that feel dirty inside like part of soul slowly being sold out, away.
       thus the shame.
       the shame of feeling, touch, nakedness, and dreaming- never doing but just thinking, of being passive aggressive and words over action.
       the shame of only going half way because it’s easier to follow.
       the shame, the guilt of shame.
       of everyday allowing part of self to disappear in the name of profit as everything’s so made up and cosmetic like dolls shiny and plastic.
       the guilt, of not being able to look into anyone’s eyes.
       almost no one becomes what they were dreaming.
       the guilt, the shame, the masochists and catholics, the whole religious right, third reich.
       por mi culpa, por mi culpa, por mi gran culpa.
       the guilt, the shame, still praying.
       someone sets out to be something, someone.
       americans with guns and how the west could have been won without exterminating whole nations of native americans.
       whose guilt? whose shame? in whose name?
       everything’s prepackaged for dissemination and consumption, but still believe what’s being said- that’s all there is to go on, so isn’t it just easier to take everyone’s money then? and run
       from guilt, from shame.
       ideals become corrupt as part of whole fades while days pass by and less of truth remains.
       everything heads towards the one, but that one is completely mistaken for a one that should be all.
       color shall blend towards gray as even love deteriorates.
       no one has time or emotions to invest, so everyday live life more and more like everything’s a hustle or investment.
       the guilt, the shame.
       not being able to fall asleep, without energy to leave, without anything to live for until it becomes easier to follow the herd over the cliff.
       the shame, the guilt of not being free, of everything weak like me.

06.09.03.

dead cold body.

dead cold body.

leave my dead cold body by the side of the road.
let the vultures come and pick at me pick my bones dry
cause there’s nothing you can take from me.
covered by a million layers paper thin you’ll have to peel,
and still there’s nothing you can take, take from me.
leave my dead cold body by the side of the road.

04.24.03.

when time drags.

when time drags.

and if for some
forsaken reason
someone decides
to listen,
it’s just

there’s so much
time invested
into the process
that one begins
to just get bored.
all ready
for sleep, for rest-
just make the voices
go away so
i can start to work,
and just
go to sleep,
go to sleep,
go to sleep,
away,
to dream.

04.16.03.

nature plots a revenge.

nature plots a revenge.

are you sure
or certain?
this is it,
no return,
looking back.
you are dead.
you are dead
already.

are you scared
or frightened
of the walls
caving in,
crashing down
all through you,
all through you
already?

does it drag,
mean the time-
the minutes,
eternal
do they seem?
well just die.
well just die
already.

04.13.03.