when was meets is.

when was meets is.

when i was
what i was,
thought i was
that i was.

but it was only i
the shadow i reflected
while filtering
through schemas
       and past experiences
while balancing with
my chemical imbalances
and predisposed disposition.

is this was
was this is
as who i was meant
or how i meant it was
to be, or will,
or has it all already
       been decided?
can i still become
       and go over?